Is This Really You, God?
The First Rose Blooms
Sunday, September 16, 2012 - The Messages Begin
I have been compelled to write. I am not sure why, but I am not questioning it because the feeling is so strong. I feel more strongly than ever, more strongly than I have felt over the past several years, that something BIG is coming – something that will affect all of us.
At first I thought it was only something for our country (the USA) – a disaster or terrorist attack of a proportion we’d not seen, but I am mistaken. It is far larger than that. It is difficult for me to think this…to write it down, but the messages are the same as before. ****
He tells me to communicate the following to others:
Pray, confess,
Go take the Eucharist – and respect it above all,
And pray the Rosary for others.
He loves us very much. Hurry. There is urgency.
****
Yes, He said He will open doors for us, with this, and every other endeavor regarding Him.
He will open doors for those who believe.
Pray for them.
Those who do not believe.
He says do not judge others.
Do not judge others.
That is for Me.
And that time is coming or will come.
Love.
I did not understand which word – coming OR will come…this often happens where I will hear two words or tenses or phrases that almost mean the same thing but I cannot discern which one is wanted, so I write both. It is as if He wants to be extremely clear.
I think I am going crazy.
Monday, September 17 - The First Miracle.
God has been speaking to me these past couple of days. A lot. He provided me a sign that told me not to doubt His Word; that these messages are from Him. That I am not crazy or making words up in my head.
My favorite rosary is one that belonged to my maternal grandmother. Before giving it to me, my mother took it to Conyers, Georgia. Our Mother Mary was “appearing” to a woman there and giving her messages for the world. This was twenty years ago, and at the time, I thought my own mother was nuts. In addition, visitors there found that silver articles in their possession were starting to turn gold. Only half of the links on my mother’s rosary – my rosary – turned gold while she visited. I’ve had it on my nightstand for years. I picked it up this morning.
The thing is, I just realized that more of the links have started turning gold…
I am confused. Very, very confused.
Thursday, October 4 - The Cliff into the Fire.
Today’s talk was not as pronounced as the others. For the past few weeks, I’ve laid things aside. Stopped praying the rosary, going to confession, going to Church…rebelling. I have kept checking the Rosary over and over. I have shown it to others who said it could merely be the natural tarnish that comes with age. I have worried about it and looked at it at different times of the day and under different lights. It is still gold. I feel that if I could just will the cross itself to turn gold, I would not feel so doubtful…so doubtful of what I see or of what I believe happened or is happening.
God, hi. I’d like to hear from You again, because I’m kind of feeling a bit nuts and like I’ve made the whole thing up. Can you just direct me to a bible passage that’s really clear. Thanks and P.S. I love You too.
I am very informal with Him. I have always been this way. When He speaks to me, He is far more powerful and beautiful. The only way to describe it is that He fills My heart. It feels physical too. His Message:
First, right at this moment
We are at a very bad time in the world.
Our leaders are false,
And they are leading those who follow them like sheep over a cliff.
At the bottom of that cliff is a fire like that in a volcano.
We must work to show others the right way.
Show them How I Love them
And want them… safe or having the feeling of My love or in My hands.
War is coming.
Pray for the priests that they do not become led astray by those who would lead the people –
Sheep over the edge of the cliff into the fire.
There is no return for those who fall.
It is starting.
Pray for the little ones.
They will cry when their mothers’ hands turn to dust or sand.
I had a vision of the earth or world from outer space and it was ablaze. The view of it from dark space was a fireball in black space, the universe. It spins as the fire goes around. Another vision was of a woman who, as she moved to embrace her child, turned to dust or sand and collapsed to the floor in front of her child.
Tuesday, October 9 - A Message for Those Who are Ill
****
Do not be afraid or do not let your heart feel dread.
I have made you
And I make no mistakes or I am right.
My will is right or just.
I do this, my child, with the Cross in my mind or in my Heart …
I am there with you.
I see a strong vision of the Cross at a short distance in shadow with quiet sundown – purple, dark blue, pink, orange hues. It is so peaceful. ****
Hurry, there is urgency.
Pray for our priests and the children especially…
Friday, October 12, 2012 About Atheists
Over the past two days or so, I have been violently chicken – afraid. I’ve wanted to run like Jonah; to hide somewhere so that the Lord will use someone else instead of me. I keep seeing myself in a big whale’s mouth. I read Exodus 1 – 4 as was suggested by someone and understood why Moses balked. But I argued, at least Moses had a staff that turned into a snake and could call in the frogs. I have a cool rosary that no one believes turns colors.
Don't worry. I will provide the tools.
As I was praying the rosary this morning, I prayed for the atheists. I try to explain to them how God only wants to love them or how abortion is killing poor babies. They say such hateful things about God. They laugh at Him and say people are stupid for believing in something that does not exist. They call Him a make-believe character like Santa Claus or the tooth-fairy. They blaspheme in uglier ways. I prayed that I could be a shield between our Lord and all those mean, angry things they say. They hurt Him so much. It is like refusing to love an innocent child who has its arms extended for an embrace. Who can resist a child? I want to be a shield between Him and anything that hurts His feelings. It makes me so sad too.
He does not understand how people can resist His love.
This is somehow a message but also a lament.
His heart is broken by these people,
So we must very much pray for them and pray hard.
It is not enough for me to get between Him and their words.
I am not enough of a shield but He loves me for my effort.
People must understand how they hurt Him.
****
I pray for the priests.
And feel how so many are not…as focused (There is something else, another description.)
****
On God and His Will as they must be.
****
I prayed for the children. For those who have been born and those who are yet to be born who are in their mothers’ wombs now. As I finished my prayers, God said to me:
****
It is I who gives you breath and I who will give you strength
And I who will protect you and I who loves you and I who created you.
****
Peace in your heart.
And I felt at peace.
Monday, October 15 - On Rejecting God’s Love
Rejection hurts. I’ve cried when I have been rejected. God allowed me to feel what He feels when He is rejected. It sucked the air from my lungs, it hurt so much.
When we reject God, He feels like this.
We break His heart
But it is far worse because there are so many who reject Him.
He doesn’t understand why His pleas are rejected.
He wants His priests to draw His people in
****
To draw them in and leave no one in despair of the Church.
****
Teach people.
Rejection is not of God.
He feels our rejection and it is a scourge on His palm of love.
You cannot or you must not add to the heavy-heartedness of people.
It is already there or there is already too much.
****
Feel at peace.
In the First Book of Kings, Solomon prays. We all sin. Against our neighbors and God as well. God will hear us and accept us if we are humble and sorry. He will bring back the rain or remove the swarms of locusts if we apologize, pray, and love Him. This is a relief for me, to know that when God shocks everybody with whatever is coming, people will still have a chance at redemption.
Tuesday, October 16 - His Agony
God allowed me to feel what was equivalent to a grain of sand of the complete pain He feels when we reject him. To think of it makes me so sad. I can’t bear it. It makes it hard to breathe.
I think it is an agony of a type or depth that no one can withstand. It seemed as if it would feel like a million of my own children had died and it was the depth of grief inherent only to that kind of pain. It is hard to explain.
Tuesday, October 23 - A Painful Path to God
A deep sadness creeps up on me. I feel very clearly that the wheel is in motion. The warning is essential because despite the best efforts of those who pray, priests and people are not prayerful…do not comprehend…or feel…the significance of the Eucharist. The sacrifice that Jesus, He, God has made for us.
****
It is manifested in the Eucharist
And this lack of understanding hurts us.
****…it will come.
It is coming because we do not believe.
Because people reject Me.
It is painful but people must learn
And will be given the opportunity to turn to Me in their fear
And I will be there for them.
I will be there to save them again.
The things that will happen will seem cruel – crueler than the world as you know it.
But it is to help My Children learn.
To give you a path to Me.
I want you to come to Me.
I forgive all sins.
Bring all of your fears to Me.
I love you.
You are My Children.
Do not forsake Me.
****
Thursday, October 25 - Pray and Do Not Be Violent
I woke up feeling very much a memory of a dream with no other details except a faint thought. I am to read Luke…48-70. I was taken to the betrayal and arrest of Jesus. I wondered if I am destined to do this – to deny Christ. Do I betray Him already? The whole chapter is about betrayal and how God expects it.
He does not want us to respond to people
Who ridicule us or hurt us for believing in Him.
Not with our bodies, physically fighting,
Nor with the bitterness and anger of our words.
He will judge.
He provides comfort through His forgiveness for all who come to Him.
How He loves His Children!
What wonders and gifts does He have waiting for us.
And yet we falter still and reject His love.
Do not be afraid.
Stand firm and proclaim your faith in Me.
It will grow more difficult soon.
Trust in Me for I am the Lord who loves you.
Pray.
Continue to pray.
For priests.
For the Eucharist. For people traveling.
I am who I am.
I have made this earth for you.
Come embrace Me My Children.
For you do not have long.
****
Dear Lord, how will we survive?
I will be there for you and will guide you to My Light
But you must remain faithful and maintain your strong belief in Me.
****
My Holy Mother, Mary.
Always look to her for comfort and guidance.
She will also help you.
Watch for her.
****
Do not be afraid.
I will show you the way.
And the world?
Surely this world disappoints Me.
I am saddened by wars.
Violence of men.
These things are not of Me.
Pray that these things become silent.
Pray for the babies.
For their unborn souls are sad.
I will give great glory to the impoverished.
****
Children turn to Me, for I am one God.
My arms yearn to comfort you.
It is for you to decide.
Do not betray Me little children.
Thank you for your prayers.
I love your prayers.
I hear your prayers.
I am always listening.
I am always there.
Do not be afraid.
Your time is short.
Pray for the Priests,
The Eucharist
The thieves, children,
And those who do not believe who will fall into the fire.
Pray for Pope Benedict and the people of Rome.
****
Wednesday, October 31 - On Anger and Prayer
The great storm (Sandy) has taken its toll on everyone. It has been awhile since He has spoken. I miss His messages. One thing I read in the Bible is that as His servant, I can make no claim on His graciousness. It’s true.
The Children do not know what they do.
I have viewed their parents’ hearts.
There is hate there.
Divorce.
No commitment to their promise to Me.
****
I see a wall or a block. It blocks a narrow space over a ledge of a cliff. It is large and light green. I feel as if I am the wall or as if I am able to move it from afar to keep people from falling. It is difficult for me.
There is a wall that will block everyone that will not pressure those on its side,
But on the other side is the fire pit.
[People feel an urgency - to get out of the way of the wall & many want and try to see the other side.]
The wall pushes people back, but even still, it is not a friendly experience.
But not like the fire pit.
There seemed to be a lot of shoving and pushing going on by this side of the wall to either move forward or backward but to move out of the way at any cost. I can still see it and feel it. The wall is square and large. Arms are sticking out all over as it drives people back from the edge. People thrash and shove to move. Some try to move around it; sneak around it to peer, to see what’s on the other side. I can close my eyes and bring up the vision; it often comes to me.
And when does "this thing," or "the warning" come? (*Somehow I sense that that name has picked up from someone else - "the warning.)
Soon. Very soon
Bring people to Me.
I am happy and pleased with some of you.
But only some.
There are those who pray with empty hearts.
****
Let the anger from this life go.
It only brings pain.
Pray for the priests,
The Eucharist,
And the Children who will be scared.
I have been compelled to write. I am not sure why, but I am not questioning it because the feeling is so strong. I feel more strongly than ever, more strongly than I have felt over the past several years, that something BIG is coming – something that will affect all of us.
At first I thought it was only something for our country (the USA) – a disaster or terrorist attack of a proportion we’d not seen, but I am mistaken. It is far larger than that. It is difficult for me to think this…to write it down, but the messages are the same as before. ****
He tells me to communicate the following to others:
Pray, confess,
Go take the Eucharist – and respect it above all,
And pray the Rosary for others.
He loves us very much. Hurry. There is urgency.
****
Yes, He said He will open doors for us, with this, and every other endeavor regarding Him.
He will open doors for those who believe.
Pray for them.
Those who do not believe.
He says do not judge others.
Do not judge others.
That is for Me.
And that time is coming or will come.
Love.
I did not understand which word – coming OR will come…this often happens where I will hear two words or tenses or phrases that almost mean the same thing but I cannot discern which one is wanted, so I write both. It is as if He wants to be extremely clear.
I think I am going crazy.
Monday, September 17 - The First Miracle.
God has been speaking to me these past couple of days. A lot. He provided me a sign that told me not to doubt His Word; that these messages are from Him. That I am not crazy or making words up in my head.
My favorite rosary is one that belonged to my maternal grandmother. Before giving it to me, my mother took it to Conyers, Georgia. Our Mother Mary was “appearing” to a woman there and giving her messages for the world. This was twenty years ago, and at the time, I thought my own mother was nuts. In addition, visitors there found that silver articles in their possession were starting to turn gold. Only half of the links on my mother’s rosary – my rosary – turned gold while she visited. I’ve had it on my nightstand for years. I picked it up this morning.
The thing is, I just realized that more of the links have started turning gold…
I am confused. Very, very confused.
Thursday, October 4 - The Cliff into the Fire.
Today’s talk was not as pronounced as the others. For the past few weeks, I’ve laid things aside. Stopped praying the rosary, going to confession, going to Church…rebelling. I have kept checking the Rosary over and over. I have shown it to others who said it could merely be the natural tarnish that comes with age. I have worried about it and looked at it at different times of the day and under different lights. It is still gold. I feel that if I could just will the cross itself to turn gold, I would not feel so doubtful…so doubtful of what I see or of what I believe happened or is happening.
God, hi. I’d like to hear from You again, because I’m kind of feeling a bit nuts and like I’ve made the whole thing up. Can you just direct me to a bible passage that’s really clear. Thanks and P.S. I love You too.
I am very informal with Him. I have always been this way. When He speaks to me, He is far more powerful and beautiful. The only way to describe it is that He fills My heart. It feels physical too. His Message:
First, right at this moment
We are at a very bad time in the world.
Our leaders are false,
And they are leading those who follow them like sheep over a cliff.
At the bottom of that cliff is a fire like that in a volcano.
We must work to show others the right way.
Show them How I Love them
And want them… safe or having the feeling of My love or in My hands.
War is coming.
Pray for the priests that they do not become led astray by those who would lead the people –
Sheep over the edge of the cliff into the fire.
There is no return for those who fall.
It is starting.
Pray for the little ones.
They will cry when their mothers’ hands turn to dust or sand.
I had a vision of the earth or world from outer space and it was ablaze. The view of it from dark space was a fireball in black space, the universe. It spins as the fire goes around. Another vision was of a woman who, as she moved to embrace her child, turned to dust or sand and collapsed to the floor in front of her child.
Tuesday, October 9 - A Message for Those Who are Ill
****
Do not be afraid or do not let your heart feel dread.
I have made you
And I make no mistakes or I am right.
My will is right or just.
I do this, my child, with the Cross in my mind or in my Heart …
I am there with you.
I see a strong vision of the Cross at a short distance in shadow with quiet sundown – purple, dark blue, pink, orange hues. It is so peaceful. ****
Hurry, there is urgency.
Pray for our priests and the children especially…
Friday, October 12, 2012 About Atheists
Over the past two days or so, I have been violently chicken – afraid. I’ve wanted to run like Jonah; to hide somewhere so that the Lord will use someone else instead of me. I keep seeing myself in a big whale’s mouth. I read Exodus 1 – 4 as was suggested by someone and understood why Moses balked. But I argued, at least Moses had a staff that turned into a snake and could call in the frogs. I have a cool rosary that no one believes turns colors.
Don't worry. I will provide the tools.
As I was praying the rosary this morning, I prayed for the atheists. I try to explain to them how God only wants to love them or how abortion is killing poor babies. They say such hateful things about God. They laugh at Him and say people are stupid for believing in something that does not exist. They call Him a make-believe character like Santa Claus or the tooth-fairy. They blaspheme in uglier ways. I prayed that I could be a shield between our Lord and all those mean, angry things they say. They hurt Him so much. It is like refusing to love an innocent child who has its arms extended for an embrace. Who can resist a child? I want to be a shield between Him and anything that hurts His feelings. It makes me so sad too.
He does not understand how people can resist His love.
This is somehow a message but also a lament.
His heart is broken by these people,
So we must very much pray for them and pray hard.
It is not enough for me to get between Him and their words.
I am not enough of a shield but He loves me for my effort.
People must understand how they hurt Him.
****
I pray for the priests.
And feel how so many are not…as focused (There is something else, another description.)
****
On God and His Will as they must be.
****
I prayed for the children. For those who have been born and those who are yet to be born who are in their mothers’ wombs now. As I finished my prayers, God said to me:
****
It is I who gives you breath and I who will give you strength
And I who will protect you and I who loves you and I who created you.
****
Peace in your heart.
And I felt at peace.
Monday, October 15 - On Rejecting God’s Love
Rejection hurts. I’ve cried when I have been rejected. God allowed me to feel what He feels when He is rejected. It sucked the air from my lungs, it hurt so much.
When we reject God, He feels like this.
We break His heart
But it is far worse because there are so many who reject Him.
He doesn’t understand why His pleas are rejected.
He wants His priests to draw His people in
****
To draw them in and leave no one in despair of the Church.
****
Teach people.
Rejection is not of God.
He feels our rejection and it is a scourge on His palm of love.
You cannot or you must not add to the heavy-heartedness of people.
It is already there or there is already too much.
****
Feel at peace.
In the First Book of Kings, Solomon prays. We all sin. Against our neighbors and God as well. God will hear us and accept us if we are humble and sorry. He will bring back the rain or remove the swarms of locusts if we apologize, pray, and love Him. This is a relief for me, to know that when God shocks everybody with whatever is coming, people will still have a chance at redemption.
Tuesday, October 16 - His Agony
God allowed me to feel what was equivalent to a grain of sand of the complete pain He feels when we reject him. To think of it makes me so sad. I can’t bear it. It makes it hard to breathe.
I think it is an agony of a type or depth that no one can withstand. It seemed as if it would feel like a million of my own children had died and it was the depth of grief inherent only to that kind of pain. It is hard to explain.
Tuesday, October 23 - A Painful Path to God
A deep sadness creeps up on me. I feel very clearly that the wheel is in motion. The warning is essential because despite the best efforts of those who pray, priests and people are not prayerful…do not comprehend…or feel…the significance of the Eucharist. The sacrifice that Jesus, He, God has made for us.
****
It is manifested in the Eucharist
And this lack of understanding hurts us.
****…it will come.
It is coming because we do not believe.
Because people reject Me.
It is painful but people must learn
And will be given the opportunity to turn to Me in their fear
And I will be there for them.
I will be there to save them again.
The things that will happen will seem cruel – crueler than the world as you know it.
But it is to help My Children learn.
To give you a path to Me.
I want you to come to Me.
I forgive all sins.
Bring all of your fears to Me.
I love you.
You are My Children.
Do not forsake Me.
****
Thursday, October 25 - Pray and Do Not Be Violent
I woke up feeling very much a memory of a dream with no other details except a faint thought. I am to read Luke…48-70. I was taken to the betrayal and arrest of Jesus. I wondered if I am destined to do this – to deny Christ. Do I betray Him already? The whole chapter is about betrayal and how God expects it.
He does not want us to respond to people
Who ridicule us or hurt us for believing in Him.
Not with our bodies, physically fighting,
Nor with the bitterness and anger of our words.
He will judge.
He provides comfort through His forgiveness for all who come to Him.
How He loves His Children!
What wonders and gifts does He have waiting for us.
And yet we falter still and reject His love.
Do not be afraid.
Stand firm and proclaim your faith in Me.
It will grow more difficult soon.
Trust in Me for I am the Lord who loves you.
Pray.
Continue to pray.
For priests.
For the Eucharist. For people traveling.
I am who I am.
I have made this earth for you.
Come embrace Me My Children.
For you do not have long.
****
Dear Lord, how will we survive?
I will be there for you and will guide you to My Light
But you must remain faithful and maintain your strong belief in Me.
****
My Holy Mother, Mary.
Always look to her for comfort and guidance.
She will also help you.
Watch for her.
****
Do not be afraid.
I will show you the way.
And the world?
Surely this world disappoints Me.
I am saddened by wars.
Violence of men.
These things are not of Me.
Pray that these things become silent.
Pray for the babies.
For their unborn souls are sad.
I will give great glory to the impoverished.
****
Children turn to Me, for I am one God.
My arms yearn to comfort you.
It is for you to decide.
Do not betray Me little children.
Thank you for your prayers.
I love your prayers.
I hear your prayers.
I am always listening.
I am always there.
Do not be afraid.
Your time is short.
Pray for the Priests,
The Eucharist
The thieves, children,
And those who do not believe who will fall into the fire.
Pray for Pope Benedict and the people of Rome.
****
Wednesday, October 31 - On Anger and Prayer
The great storm (Sandy) has taken its toll on everyone. It has been awhile since He has spoken. I miss His messages. One thing I read in the Bible is that as His servant, I can make no claim on His graciousness. It’s true.
The Children do not know what they do.
I have viewed their parents’ hearts.
There is hate there.
Divorce.
No commitment to their promise to Me.
****
I see a wall or a block. It blocks a narrow space over a ledge of a cliff. It is large and light green. I feel as if I am the wall or as if I am able to move it from afar to keep people from falling. It is difficult for me.
There is a wall that will block everyone that will not pressure those on its side,
But on the other side is the fire pit.
[People feel an urgency - to get out of the way of the wall & many want and try to see the other side.]
The wall pushes people back, but even still, it is not a friendly experience.
But not like the fire pit.
There seemed to be a lot of shoving and pushing going on by this side of the wall to either move forward or backward but to move out of the way at any cost. I can still see it and feel it. The wall is square and large. Arms are sticking out all over as it drives people back from the edge. People thrash and shove to move. Some try to move around it; sneak around it to peer, to see what’s on the other side. I can close my eyes and bring up the vision; it often comes to me.
And when does "this thing," or "the warning" come? (*Somehow I sense that that name has picked up from someone else - "the warning.)
Soon. Very soon
Bring people to Me.
I am happy and pleased with some of you.
But only some.
There are those who pray with empty hearts.
****
Let the anger from this life go.
It only brings pain.
Pray for the priests,
The Eucharist,
And the Children who will be scared.